So many ideas, so little time to blog

Since my last blog post, many days ago, I have thought about blogging every single day. Not so much what to blog about, more what to blog about first. I have been reading and have gotten 2 Real Simple's off the reading list.

But I'm still reading this damn Vibe from February! The high class problem is that (1) outside of the fact that Kanye is on the cover, (2) it also contains an article on The-Dream, who is also one of my favorites and (3) the writing is SO GOOD! I hadn't read Vibe in a really long time and the writing has evolved incredibly and I just don't want it to end.

I can say that I have at least started the article that is actually about Kanye West (starting on page 59) and my new high class problem is that not only is the writing phenomenal, this is one of the most introspective interviews with Kanye that I've ever read. His responses to each question are mind blowing and each line prompts a hundred thoughts for me. In my ideal world, I anticipated reading the article and blogging about it but because it's my blog and it's a free space, I guess I can write about any and all of it! Seriously, I believe there is a lot of richness to this article that has been inspiring to me and maybe it will be for you too...

The article starts with a full page, black and white headshot of Kanye with an Andy Warhol quote laid out over it: "They always say that time changes things. But you actually have to change them yourself." Besides the fact that Andy Warhol is a genius in his own right, this quote summarizes the story of my life.

Let me explain - I have this unrealistic fear that I'm always running out of time so I have to do as many things as possible to make sure that I'm prepared no matter what. Dangerous thinking - sure. But I think I'm in the minority of people who actually benefit from this thinking. When I started my Master's degree in Psychology, I wanted to be a therapist. I wanted to help people. I wanted to help people find solutions to their problems. About 6 months into the program, I realized that I don't have the patience to do therapy - and freaked out because I thought I had made a $40K mistake. I just couldn't see myself, seeing patients, week after week, month after month, year after year, trying to help someone.

I am not insensitive and don't want to appear that way. It would just be frustrating for me to see insurmountable potential and strength in someone that they can't see in themselves to overcome obstacles and make the changes necessary to have the life they want. I love people and I still want to help people. But I guess I take the stance that time is a divine gift that we're given to create and live the lives we want. At the end of the day, you decide how you spend your time.